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Lately beter name to come

Since my last post a lot has happened.

I went to seattle
it was all together lovely

no longer talk to the boy
Why you ask? Idk maybe because lots of people told me he is gay (which would explain the whole "its not you I just cant get off when i use a condom" bullshit) But really its because while in Seattle I realized how little my phone ever rang and it was him on the other line.

I got asked out on a date by this pretty foxy looking guy while i was there and wasn't going to go until 3 days had passed and I hadn't talked to "whatshisface" at all. It may make me sound like a cheata but we weren't committed to each other and dang it I was mad and hurt.

After i got back home things ended between us...... through fucking text messages, which btw I had to do because he wouldnt. He now lives in the same city as me. The first night he got back he saw me with a new guy, whom I'll call redneck (please lord tell me you can figure out why he's called that). We had this talk later on about how he was going to try things with me when he got back and blah blah blah and how i messed all that up blah blah blah. But i say in closing who... really who? in their right mind would want someone the doesnt even value you enough to called you??? not me.