New DAYZ

Not drinking has brought so much positive to my life.


I really do feel so much better. I FEEL everything now.


But let me say this, because "this" is important, it's NOT easy.


At times going without alcohol feels like breathing


Then other times it feels like I'm trying to swallow nails


I think about how easy it would be to make that feeling go away.


Maybe a 6pack and a few shots, or a couple whiskey and diet cokes..


And then bam feeling gone.


All feelings just gone.


My high points are so good.


But my low points are equivalent to me being stuck in a pit with sand or rock or mud or hell maybe


even cow shit, piled on top of me and only the very tips of my index fingers are sticking out.


That tiny tip is freedom for me. That tip is hope.


That tip is my life being lived by me and not the stranger that steals my body when I've had too


much to drink.


So excuse me while i don't partake in drinking with you lonely man and hippy dirty girl or even you


handsome gentleman.


I would rather be covered up with shit in this pit with only a bit of fingers sticking out than give up a


second more of feeling every bit of my life.